This post is going to be very VERY hard for me to actually publish. I tend to find or see myself as successful when actually deciding to do most things. I am not perfect and dont always do them great but I do my best when doing anything. Till now!
Yesterday was a breaking point for me. I have, what I call, officially crossed over into the "failure/back sliden/give up" point. After stepping on the scale again to see I have officially put on yet another 3 lbs.....I just cant handle it!
No I am not eating salad and chicken daily.....I occasionally eat potatoes and corn chips w/salsa. But this is NOT a daily thing. Obviously eating the fruit and veggie pH diet was not working for MY Body! Lets face it.......NO ONE and I mean NO ONE should gain weight because of the occasional once a week chips and salsa or potatoes or beans/rice with their meal. I can even be honest and say that in the last month I have had some fried pickles........STILL....no one should put on weight like this. EVER!
You would think if I was eating cake, cookies, candy, soda, pasta, bread, donuts and bags of chips....Yah I should start to gain weight....IF I ATE ONLY THAT ALL DAY LONG EVERYDAY! But I am not.
So the devil got a hold of my brain last night.....see the "stinking thinking" set it. Sounding like this...."If I am going to get fat eating right and focusing on EVERY little thing I eat....then why not get fat eating fun stuff. yah it is toxic but it has been 2 years since I had chocolate cake w/ chocolate icing. Or a cinnamon roll with cream cheese icing. I am not a bread eater but sour dough is my favorite...so why not eat a piece with hot butter if your gaining weight ANYWAY! See Coopers snickers sitting on your desk....you will gain the same weight with that as you would eating the carrots and juice you are eating now...so go for it!!!"
I am here to gladly say I did NOT eat those things BUT I did eat a very small FREE ice cream from a Mexican restaurant along with a FREE small sopapilla and one fresh tortilla. Most sugar and bread I have had in over 2 years....I came home and was tired and totally in a bad mood. My body is swollen last night and still today.
I can kill candida and parasites on my own but NO WAY I should be
gaining weight like this from those issues. Maybe if I was eating all
the bad foods from above but not the way I am eating.
So as of today....all I can think about is WHAT THE HECK TO DO! So I decided I am going to see a Dr. Doctor to do blood work. I want to see if my blood says I am pre-diabetic. Is my liver truly shot or struggling. He is a medical Dr who has worked ER for years but prefers holistic approach. So he should look at me with DR eyes and run DR test but help me heal with natural ways.....Plus, I am 40 and would love to have a blood work test to have as a marker for my later years.
I am so sorry that I am letting everyone down. This kills me, just kills me. I know how to get well and how to treat things but I just am not sure what all I am treating and the best way to treat it at this time...so there for I am floundering like a crazy woman and the enemy is coming at me with lies about food.
Pray for me and that I can hear from the Lord. See, He knows EVERYTHING I need. What I can and can not do and the best way for me to go about it. Honestly I dont believe I am even that "sick". Meaning I dont believe that I am in all that bad of a place...I just think one little thing is off and the way I am eating and supplements I am taking are triggering it the wrong way.
Lord, I come to you now publicly proclaiming that You know everything about me. You know the truth and the lies about where I stand. I also know you dont care about my "size or looks" but about my health. Yes Lord I do NOT want to get huge again but I dont ask to be skinny either. Please Lord help me get my body back to the perfect health You have designed for it. That the truth would be revealed and the lies exposed. That I would no longer focus on the lies and walk out the truth from here on out. I truly believe I am healthy, I am well and I am strong. I just need you to show me what parts I am contributing to my life that are ailing it. I ask these things in Your name Jesus and believe you have an answer for me. Thank you Lord.
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Good spit vs. Bad spit! AND...removal of unhealthy spots on my body.
So today I had my son spit in a glass. Below you will see Good Spit vs. Candida Spit.
See how his on the left is clear bubbles that stay at top...GOOD
See how mine is yellow (again) and strings down and NO bubbles....BAD (candida)
I am not exactly sure WHY my spit is bad again. It is that time of the month so not sure if that effects it any. So I will take next week again and see if I truly am struggling or if it is just how my body responds to being on its cycle.
My hip is killing me more than ever as well.
Right now my biggest issue is my right side where my liver and used to be gall bladder would be HURT. Not in like a knife pain but more like...it feels HUGE and there is pressure.
some tell me it is Parasites active because it is a full moon right now. OH MY GOSH just kill me now. Some say it is my liver detoxing. All I know is.......it is new and I dont like it at all. It hurts all day but mainly after I eat.
Last night it was spasming as I was going to sleep....so in Jesus Name it is NOT parasites. I am healthy by his blood. I am going to say it is "constipation" and I am sticking to that...lol.
I am also in my like 5th week of taking care of a "suspicious spot" on my arm. Very cool this process. I use black salve. These pics are very gross so before you scroll down do NOT be eating. And I warn you, you can NOT UNsee these pics. If you would like more info on why and how myself and hundreds others are removing unhealthy spots on our body let me know.
This is first application on a very small spot on my arm. This is like day 10ish. The white is the unhealthy cells being removed.
3 days later after it fell out.
About 5 days later it was totally healing up flat and smooth then I scratched it and blood filled the space....very strange and scary.
Ok there is an entire application here missing. I reapplied and in 4 days a small piece fell out and left a deep hole in my arm that bleed. So I decided to reapply AGAIN BUT....this time I ONLY put it around the small deep hole in my arm.....above you see 24 hours later the salve ONLY took to the middle section (which I did NOT apply to) and the outer areas.
A few days later and it hurt. A combination of throbbing and feeling like a sun burn. Had some streaks going up my arm as well but fixed that by using a Cater Oil Pack for 4 night in a row.
Monday Aug 19th fell out and left a "bullet" wound in my arm..lol.
Thursday Aug 22nd healing nicely. I am doing a healing salve of : caster oil, coconut oil, Frankincense Essential oil and Lavender Essential Oil from Young Living.
Ok well that is this weeks "Life and Health" of Tage.
Have questoins about Black Salve, Essential Oils, Parasites or Candida message me or email me at tage_b@yahoo.com
Be blessed, Tage
See how his on the left is clear bubbles that stay at top...GOOD
See how mine is yellow (again) and strings down and NO bubbles....BAD (candida)
I am not exactly sure WHY my spit is bad again. It is that time of the month so not sure if that effects it any. So I will take next week again and see if I truly am struggling or if it is just how my body responds to being on its cycle.
My hip is killing me more than ever as well.
Right now my biggest issue is my right side where my liver and used to be gall bladder would be HURT. Not in like a knife pain but more like...it feels HUGE and there is pressure.
some tell me it is Parasites active because it is a full moon right now. OH MY GOSH just kill me now. Some say it is my liver detoxing. All I know is.......it is new and I dont like it at all. It hurts all day but mainly after I eat.
Last night it was spasming as I was going to sleep....so in Jesus Name it is NOT parasites. I am healthy by his blood. I am going to say it is "constipation" and I am sticking to that...lol.
I am also in my like 5th week of taking care of a "suspicious spot" on my arm. Very cool this process. I use black salve. These pics are very gross so before you scroll down do NOT be eating. And I warn you, you can NOT UNsee these pics. If you would like more info on why and how myself and hundreds others are removing unhealthy spots on our body let me know.
A few days later and it hurt. A combination of throbbing and feeling like a sun burn. Had some streaks going up my arm as well but fixed that by using a Cater Oil Pack for 4 night in a row.
Ok well that is this weeks "Life and Health" of Tage.
Have questoins about Black Salve, Essential Oils, Parasites or Candida message me or email me at tage_b@yahoo.com
Be blessed, Tage
Wednesday, August 14, 2013
Day 37 and stuggling over stupid stuff, got new meds and I am no longer sick IN JESUS NAME.
TODAY!! 8/14/2013
Wow, so much to share. 37 days, better spit, 14 new herbal meds, my constant struggle with food and God told me to stop saying and believing I AM SICK WITH CANDIDA and parasites ..
So lets start with, MY SPIT! :)
My spit has improved so much in just 37 days. Amazing really. Shows me the drop and supplements are working.YET....................
I am going to lay it all out on the line. I AM STRUGGLING!!!! It would be stupid to lie and pretend as it does no one any good. So today I have to share that I have been consumed with food. Why is this so hard to share....because I spent the last 2 years free from this issue. AND helping others get over it. I also am just sick at heart over the weight gain. At night I get all upset at how I chose to eat and focus on what to change and wakeup in the morning with NO plan, like I forgot all the things from the night before I got from the Lord or planned or understood. WHY IS THIS? And I am here to tell you...I just dont know. I have no idea why there is a battle for my mind over food and waist line AND HEALTH but there is and I am losing big time!
I know where it started though. I know my body. It loves Atkins low carb eating (ie lots of meat and veggies). I ate this way and lost 80 lbs. Then as a treat decide I would like to add fruit, potatoes and corn. 2 months after adding them I gain 15 lbs. I decide to go back to low carb...and out of now where....I feel like crap. WHAT? How can me eating low carb make me feel like crap I am type 0 blood type and my body LOVEs eating that way. So I decide over the next 3-4 months I am going to try different things...fasting, all liquids, Liver cleanse, veggies only, a cleanse....ALL THE STUFF I KNOW MAKES ME HEALTHY AND jump kicks my body. Right before my cruise 10 lbs comes off from this stew pot of lost eating plans. I go on a cruise and 9 day vacation...to come home to NOT ONE POUND GAINED....yep ate potatoes the entire time...and I mean over did it. WHY no weight change there?
So come home in May and notice I dont feel well in different areas in my life and body. I tell toby it has to be Candida. Finally I go see a Dr and she test me and tells me..........
1. Your liver is in need of care (dont eat meat)
2. your pancreas is struggling and your showing insulin intolerance (no fruit or sugar like items)
3. Your body is NOT processing veggies (no veggies)
4. You have sever candida
5. You have parasites....(i know because (gross prepare yourself)...they crawled in my butt at 4am every night) TMI I know!!!!
So why am I so lost?....BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO EAT AND WHAT!
You see, if I dont have a plan or goal or understanding..........I flounder like a fish out of water and everyday is a screwed up lost plan with NO action. I HATE IT!!! And my body tells me eat this, my mind says dont and my stressed out self goes." oh who knows what to eat so just eat it"...I keep thinking I have this idea and plan of exactly what will work and then 2 days into it...either i cant get down another bite of it OR my will looses and I am eating the wrong things again.
Though my spit is so much better and I dont feel bugs anymore at night. ( praise the lord God all Mighty...you can not be a germ-a-phobe and KNOW you have bugs in your butt. Serious total nervous break downs for weeks at night. Like on the floor in total freak out in the middle of the night).
But for now...I sit here at night once again wrestling with my diet. I crave fried things, I want fruit all the time, I want chips and salsa like 24/7 and if I eat another piece of chicken I will gag. And trust me....EVERYONE has their idea of what I should do or suggestion of what about this or that.....but what is best when you cant eat meat, veggies or simple carbs of any kind?????? I mean for real. LONG TERM...what do you do. I can do anything 2-3 weeks but at some point you can only eat so much kale and broccoli or soup broth. Soooo, because there is no plan I AM A MESS! A total mess.
NEW SUPPLIMENTS;
Today I started a second round of about 14 new supplements. They all have strange code names like D-MICO and Bac-X so who stinking knows what I am taking and for what. I trust it though and I am sooooooooooo Glad it is drops..I just do NOT do well swallowing of pills. So today I started a NEW chapter of this KILLING of the CANDIDA buggers and we will see what the supplements do.
NO LONGER SICK:
One thing I did get over the last 2 weeks was totally from the Lord. I just happened to watch this amazing broadcast on SidRoth.com and this lady had an amazing story about all her illnesses and times the devil has tried to take her life. And in one little saying I KNEW I was thinking wrong and God was correcting me. The power of death and life are in the tongue. So what I believe is I am free of bad candida and parasites (no longer signs of them praise the lord) but I do need to support and take care of my liver. So I will not say or believe anything other than I am free of those things but need to eat well to support my liver and pancreas as I have no gallbladder.
I know I need to do this 90 days straight as our blood and body have a 90 day cycle. So 1/3 of it is done. I just hope the Lord gets a hold of my mind and soul and WE get it together and start kicking some FOOD ISSUES BUTT!
Till next time...try doing your own spit test and doing a candida test of your own. Here are 3 great sites.
http://www.wholeapproach.com/candida/questionnaire.php
http://www.thecandidadiet.com/cleansing.htm
http://bodyecology.com/body-ecology-overview
Be blessed, Tage
Wow, so much to share. 37 days, better spit, 14 new herbal meds, my constant struggle with food and God told me to stop saying and believing I AM SICK WITH CANDIDA and parasites ..
So lets start with, MY SPIT! :)
My spit has improved so much in just 37 days. Amazing really. Shows me the drop and supplements are working.YET....................
I am going to lay it all out on the line. I AM STRUGGLING!!!! It would be stupid to lie and pretend as it does no one any good. So today I have to share that I have been consumed with food. Why is this so hard to share....because I spent the last 2 years free from this issue. AND helping others get over it. I also am just sick at heart over the weight gain. At night I get all upset at how I chose to eat and focus on what to change and wakeup in the morning with NO plan, like I forgot all the things from the night before I got from the Lord or planned or understood. WHY IS THIS? And I am here to tell you...I just dont know. I have no idea why there is a battle for my mind over food and waist line AND HEALTH but there is and I am losing big time!
I know where it started though. I know my body. It loves Atkins low carb eating (ie lots of meat and veggies). I ate this way and lost 80 lbs. Then as a treat decide I would like to add fruit, potatoes and corn. 2 months after adding them I gain 15 lbs. I decide to go back to low carb...and out of now where....I feel like crap. WHAT? How can me eating low carb make me feel like crap I am type 0 blood type and my body LOVEs eating that way. So I decide over the next 3-4 months I am going to try different things...fasting, all liquids, Liver cleanse, veggies only, a cleanse....ALL THE STUFF I KNOW MAKES ME HEALTHY AND jump kicks my body. Right before my cruise 10 lbs comes off from this stew pot of lost eating plans. I go on a cruise and 9 day vacation...to come home to NOT ONE POUND GAINED....yep ate potatoes the entire time...and I mean over did it. WHY no weight change there?
So come home in May and notice I dont feel well in different areas in my life and body. I tell toby it has to be Candida. Finally I go see a Dr and she test me and tells me..........
1. Your liver is in need of care (dont eat meat)
2. your pancreas is struggling and your showing insulin intolerance (no fruit or sugar like items)
3. Your body is NOT processing veggies (no veggies)
4. You have sever candida
5. You have parasites....(i know because (gross prepare yourself)...they crawled in my butt at 4am every night) TMI I know!!!!
So why am I so lost?....BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO EAT AND WHAT!
You see, if I dont have a plan or goal or understanding..........I flounder like a fish out of water and everyday is a screwed up lost plan with NO action. I HATE IT!!! And my body tells me eat this, my mind says dont and my stressed out self goes." oh who knows what to eat so just eat it"...I keep thinking I have this idea and plan of exactly what will work and then 2 days into it...either i cant get down another bite of it OR my will looses and I am eating the wrong things again.
Though my spit is so much better and I dont feel bugs anymore at night. ( praise the lord God all Mighty...you can not be a germ-a-phobe and KNOW you have bugs in your butt. Serious total nervous break downs for weeks at night. Like on the floor in total freak out in the middle of the night).
But for now...I sit here at night once again wrestling with my diet. I crave fried things, I want fruit all the time, I want chips and salsa like 24/7 and if I eat another piece of chicken I will gag. And trust me....EVERYONE has their idea of what I should do or suggestion of what about this or that.....but what is best when you cant eat meat, veggies or simple carbs of any kind?????? I mean for real. LONG TERM...what do you do. I can do anything 2-3 weeks but at some point you can only eat so much kale and broccoli or soup broth. Soooo, because there is no plan I AM A MESS! A total mess.
NEW SUPPLIMENTS;
Today I started a second round of about 14 new supplements. They all have strange code names like D-MICO and Bac-X so who stinking knows what I am taking and for what. I trust it though and I am sooooooooooo Glad it is drops..I just do NOT do well swallowing of pills. So today I started a NEW chapter of this KILLING of the CANDIDA buggers and we will see what the supplements do.
NO LONGER SICK:
One thing I did get over the last 2 weeks was totally from the Lord. I just happened to watch this amazing broadcast on SidRoth.com and this lady had an amazing story about all her illnesses and times the devil has tried to take her life. And in one little saying I KNEW I was thinking wrong and God was correcting me. The power of death and life are in the tongue. So what I believe is I am free of bad candida and parasites (no longer signs of them praise the lord) but I do need to support and take care of my liver. So I will not say or believe anything other than I am free of those things but need to eat well to support my liver and pancreas as I have no gallbladder.
I know I need to do this 90 days straight as our blood and body have a 90 day cycle. So 1/3 of it is done. I just hope the Lord gets a hold of my mind and soul and WE get it together and start kicking some FOOD ISSUES BUTT!
Till next time...try doing your own spit test and doing a candida test of your own. Here are 3 great sites.
http://www.wholeapproach.com/candida/questionnaire.php
http://www.thecandidadiet.com/cleansing.htm
http://bodyecology.com/body-ecology-overview
Be blessed, Tage
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