Thursday, September 19, 2013

Blood work and Bucket List!

9/19/2013

What a ride! And not a healthy feel good one either.

So, got my blood work back from amazing doctor visit. I AM NOT DIABETIC OR PRE-DIABETIC. Praise the Lord!!!!!!!!!

My liver count was a tad bit high or minimal elevation were his words, and he would like to run the test again and then decide if we need to do a sonogram.

He believed my issues stemmed from Thyroid. His words were "When you look like a duck, act like a duck, walk and sound like a duck...we will treat you as if you are a duck". When you look at all my issues and the typical signs of it, I so struggle with over 75% of the average symptoms of Hypothyroid.......He finds that though the "chart" says .40 - 4.5 is the normal range......that most women function better when they are at a 1.0. He has me on a small does right now and I started it on 9/17/2013 so we will see.

My past years Thyroid results/numbers
2009....1.84
2011.....1.99
My test showed I am at 2.67 for 2013
So clearly there is a slow increase and since he would like me towards the 1.0 mark I will try a low low dose of thyroid starting MONDAY 9/16/13

BUCKET LIST:
So there is kinda this running joke with me and my girl friends....because it has been like 2 years since I had actually eaten some of my old pleasure foods.....I decided I had 3 weeks to eat what I wanted and not care before I start my new "drugs". I have spent 3 weeks eating EVERYTHING on my bucket list. I admit I did not have much on that list. Mostly chocolate cake with chocolate icing, a chickfila cookie (that I had watched my friend eat every Thursday for a year), banana laughytaffy, donuts, hamburger WITH A BUN, and a few more things. What to hear the CRAZY thing. Before when I ate healthy and was taking all those supplements.....I was gaining 1 lb about every 3 days.........now eating CRAP....I am gaining 1 lb about every 3 days. So I have to say....outside of my very sickening doughnut binge.... I am happy I indulged in the burger and a few other things if I am going to gain anyway...lol.What came out of all that and blew my mind.....is the heightened awareness of FOOD ADDICTION! (will do a blog on this alone...eye opening)

VERY excited about what is coming though. Our lives are cycles. NO ONE and I mean NO ONE can sprint for ever. We are built to strive and then sit back and be grateful and then start over again.  Funny thing is I KNOW that if Jesus were to walk in and sit down by me in my office He would say...."Tage, dear. Food is for fuel not fun. If you need to process or package it, it is NOT for the body.".....Crying I would say..."So no more chocolate then?"....heehee

95% of us know what to do but only 5% of us will ever do it. I have been the 5% many times and WILL be it again.

I am looking forward to sharing the next blog on FOOD ADDICTION.

Be blessed, tage

Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Feeling a failure and getting F.A.T.

This post is going to be very VERY hard for me to actually publish. I tend to find or see myself as successful when actually deciding to do most things. I am not perfect and dont always do them great but I do my best when doing anything. Till now!

Yesterday was a breaking point for me. I have, what I call, officially crossed over into the "failure/back sliden/give up" point. After stepping on the scale again to see I have officially  put on yet another 3 lbs.....I just cant handle it!

No I am not eating salad and chicken daily.....I occasionally eat potatoes and corn chips w/salsa. But this is NOT a daily thing. Obviously eating the fruit and veggie pH diet was not working for MY Body! Lets face it.......NO ONE and I mean NO ONE should gain weight because of the occasional once a week chips and salsa or potatoes  or beans/rice with their meal. I can even be honest and say that in the last month I have had some fried pickles........STILL....no one should put on weight like this. EVER!

You would think if I was eating cake, cookies, candy, soda, pasta, bread, donuts and bags of chips....Yah I should start to gain weight....IF I ATE ONLY THAT ALL DAY LONG EVERYDAY! But I am not.

So the devil got a hold of my brain last night.....see the "stinking thinking" set it. Sounding like this...."If I am going to get fat eating right and focusing on EVERY little thing I eat....then why not get fat eating fun stuff. yah it is toxic but it has been 2 years since I had chocolate cake w/ chocolate icing. Or a cinnamon roll with cream cheese icing. I am not a bread eater but sour dough is my favorite...so why  not eat a piece with hot butter if your gaining weight ANYWAY! See Coopers snickers sitting on your desk....you will gain the same weight with that as you would eating the carrots and juice you are eating now...so go for it!!!"

I am here to gladly say I did NOT eat those things BUT I did eat a very small FREE ice cream from a Mexican restaurant along with a FREE small sopapilla and one fresh tortilla.  Most sugar and bread I have had in over 2 years....I came home and was tired and totally in a bad mood. My body is swollen last night and still today.

I can kill candida and parasites on my own but NO WAY I should be gaining weight like this from those issues. Maybe if I was eating all the bad foods from above but not the way I am eating.

So as of today....all I can think about is WHAT THE HECK TO DO!  So I decided I am going to see a Dr. Doctor to do blood work. I want to see if my blood says I am pre-diabetic. Is my liver truly shot or struggling. He is a medical Dr who has worked ER for years but prefers holistic approach. So he should look at me with DR eyes and run DR test but help me heal with natural ways.....Plus, I am 40 and would love to have a blood work test to have as a marker for my later years.

I am so sorry that I am letting everyone down. This kills me, just kills me. I know how to get well and how to treat things but I just am not sure what all I am treating and the best way to treat it at this time...so there for I am floundering like a crazy woman and the enemy is coming at me with lies about food.

Pray for me and that I can hear from the Lord. See, He knows EVERYTHING I need. What I can and can not do and the best way for me to go about it. Honestly I dont believe I am even that "sick". Meaning I dont believe that I am in all that bad of a place...I just think one little thing is off and the way I am eating and supplements I am taking are triggering it the wrong way.

Lord, I come to you now publicly proclaiming that You know everything about me. You know the truth and the lies about where I stand. I also know you dont care about my "size or looks" but about my health. Yes Lord I do NOT want to get huge again but I dont ask to be skinny either. Please Lord help me get my body back to the perfect health You have designed for it. That the truth would be revealed and the lies exposed. That I would no longer focus on the lies and walk out the truth from here on out. I truly believe I am healthy, I am well and I am strong. I just need you to show me what parts I am contributing to my life that are ailing it. I ask these things in Your name Jesus and believe you have an answer for me. Thank you Lord.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Good spit vs. Bad spit! AND...removal of unhealthy spots on my body.

So today I had my son spit in a glass. Below you will see Good Spit vs. Candida Spit.

See how his on the left is clear bubbles that stay at top...GOOD
See how mine is yellow (again) and strings down and NO bubbles....BAD (candida)






I am not exactly sure WHY my spit is bad again. It is that time of the month so not sure if that effects it any. So I will take next week again and see if I truly am struggling or if it is just how my body responds to being on its cycle.

My hip is killing me more than ever as well.

Right now my biggest issue is my right side where my liver and used to be gall bladder would be HURT. Not in like a knife pain but more like...it feels HUGE and there is pressure.

some tell me it is Parasites active because it is a full moon right now. OH MY GOSH just kill me now. Some say it is my liver detoxing. All I know is.......it is new and I dont like it at all. It hurts all day but mainly after I eat.

Last night it was spasming as I was going to sleep....so in Jesus Name it is NOT parasites. I am healthy by his blood. I am going to say it is "constipation" and I am sticking to that...lol.

I am also in my like 5th week of taking care of a "suspicious spot" on my arm. Very cool this process. I use black salve. These pics are very gross so before you scroll down do NOT be eating. And I warn you, you can NOT UNsee these pics. If you would like more info on why and how myself and hundreds others are removing unhealthy spots on our body let me know.

This is first application on a very small spot on my arm. This is like day 10ish. The white is the unhealthy cells being removed.

3 days later after it fell out.


About 5 days later it was totally healing up flat and smooth then I scratched it and blood filled the space....very strange and scary.

Ok there is an entire application here missing. I reapplied and in 4 days a small piece fell out and left a deep hole in my arm that bleed. So I decided to reapply AGAIN BUT....this time I ONLY put it around the small deep hole in my arm.....above you see 24 hours later the salve ONLY took to the middle section (which I did NOT apply to) and the outer areas.


A few days later and it hurt. A combination of throbbing and feeling like a sun burn. Had some streaks going up my arm as well but fixed that by using a Cater Oil Pack for 4 night in a row.

Monday Aug 19th fell out and left a "bullet" wound in my arm..lol.

Thursday Aug 22nd healing nicely. I am doing a healing salve of : caster oil, coconut oil, Frankincense Essential oil and Lavender Essential Oil from Young Living.

Ok well that is this weeks "Life and Health" of Tage.

Have questoins about Black Salve, Essential Oils, Parasites or Candida message me or email me at tage_b@yahoo.com

Be blessed, Tage








Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Day 37 and stuggling over stupid stuff, got new meds and I am no longer sick IN JESUS NAME.

TODAY!! 8/14/2013

Wow, so much to share. 37 days, better spit, 14 new herbal meds, my constant struggle with food and God told me to stop saying and believing I AM SICK WITH CANDIDA and parasites ..

So lets start with, MY SPIT! :)
My spit has improved so much in  just 37 days. Amazing really. Shows me the drop and supplements are working.YET....................




 I am going to lay it all out on the line. I AM STRUGGLING!!!!  It would be stupid to lie and pretend as it does no one any good. So today I have to share that I have been consumed with food. Why is this so hard to share....because I spent the last 2 years free from this issue. AND helping others get over it. I also am just sick at heart over the weight gain. At night I get all upset at how I chose to eat and focus on what to change and wakeup in the morning with NO plan, like I forgot all the things from the night before I got from the Lord or planned or understood. WHY IS THIS? And I am here to tell you...I just dont know. I have no idea why there is a battle for my mind over food and waist line AND HEALTH but there is and I am losing big time!

I know where it started though. I know my body. It loves Atkins low carb eating (ie lots of meat and veggies). I ate this way and lost 80 lbs.  Then as a treat decide I would like to add fruit, potatoes and corn. 2 months after adding them I gain 15 lbs. I decide to go back to low carb...and  out of now where....I feel like crap. WHAT? How can me eating low carb make me feel like crap I am type 0 blood type and my body LOVEs eating that way. So I decide over the next 3-4 months I am going to try different things...fasting, all liquids, Liver cleanse, veggies only, a cleanse....ALL THE STUFF I KNOW MAKES ME HEALTHY AND jump kicks my body. Right before my cruise 10 lbs comes off from this stew pot of lost eating plans. I go on a cruise and 9 day vacation...to come home to NOT ONE POUND GAINED....yep ate potatoes the entire time...and I mean over did it. WHY no weight change there?

So come home in May and notice I dont feel well in different areas in my life and body. I tell toby it has to be Candida. Finally I go see a Dr and she test me and tells me..........
1. Your liver is in need of care  (dont eat meat)
2. your pancreas is struggling and your showing insulin intolerance (no fruit or sugar like items)
3. Your body is NOT processing veggies (no veggies)
4. You have sever candida
5.  You have parasites....(i know because (gross prepare yourself)...they crawled in my butt at 4am every night)  TMI I know!!!!

So why am I so lost?....BECAUSE I DONT KNOW HOW TO EAT AND WHAT!
You see, if I dont have a plan or goal or understanding..........I flounder like a fish out of water and everyday is a screwed up lost plan with NO action. I HATE IT!!! And my body tells me eat this, my mind says dont and my stressed out self goes." oh who knows what to eat so just eat it"...I keep thinking I have this idea and plan of exactly what will work and then 2 days into it...either i cant get down another bite of it OR my will looses and I am eating the wrong things again.

Though my spit is so much better and I dont feel bugs anymore at night. ( praise the lord God all Mighty...you can not be a germ-a-phobe and KNOW you have bugs in your butt. Serious total nervous break downs for weeks at night. Like on the floor in total freak out in the middle of the night).

 But for now...I sit here at night once again wrestling with my diet. I crave fried things, I want fruit all the time, I want chips and salsa like 24/7 and if I eat another piece of chicken I will gag. And trust me....EVERYONE has their idea of what I should do or suggestion of what about this or that.....but what is best when you cant eat meat, veggies or simple carbs of any kind?????? I mean for real. LONG TERM...what do you do. I can do anything 2-3 weeks but at some point you can only eat so much kale and broccoli or soup broth. Soooo, because there is no plan I AM A MESS!  A total mess.

NEW SUPPLIMENTS;
Today I started a second round of about 14 new supplements. They all have strange code names like D-MICO and Bac-X so who stinking knows what I am taking and for what. I trust it though and I am sooooooooooo Glad it is drops..I just do NOT do well swallowing of pills. So today I started a NEW chapter of this KILLING of the CANDIDA buggers and we will see what the supplements do.

NO LONGER SICK:
One thing I did get over the last 2 weeks was totally from the Lord. I just happened to watch this amazing broadcast on SidRoth.com and this lady had an amazing story about all her illnesses and times the devil has tried to take her life. And in one little saying I KNEW I was thinking wrong and God was correcting me. The power of death and life are in the tongue. So what I believe is I am free of bad candida and parasites (no longer signs of them praise the lord) but I do need to support and take care of my liver. So I will not say or believe anything other than I am free of those things but need to eat well to support my liver and pancreas as I have no gallbladder.

I know I need to do this 90 days straight as our blood and body have a 90 day cycle. So 1/3 of it is done. I just hope the Lord gets a hold of my mind and soul and WE get it together and start kicking some FOOD ISSUES BUTT!

Till next time...try doing your own spit test and doing a candida test of your own. Here are 3 great sites.

http://www.wholeapproach.com/candida/questionnaire.php

http://www.thecandidadiet.com/cleansing.htm

http://bodyecology.com/body-ecology-overview

Be blessed, Tage

Saturday, July 27, 2013

I am so tired!!! Day 13 of 90

Wowza, has a lot happened in the last week.
Aside from being crazy tired and zero appetite
....i have broken out in a strange spotted hive like rash thing.

Day 5 of process I was on the go and could not take my supplements before I ate. I was out doing an Essential Oil class on my way to another event so stopped at Chickfila and got a Cobb Salad. I barely used any dressing and an hour later and for the next 6 hours....these spots popped up. 
I looked up in my book where these were on the spine and found that each spot was on a vertebrae
that was for Liver, pancreas, large and small intestine and stomach....GO FIGURE!..LOL
 I have several spots on my body. Then went from a spider bite type thing to this strange blood surface type thing. Today I will have had then a week. They are no longer horribly itchy or this red but still there. 

When I take my supplements I get a rush of a headache for about 10 min till I eat. Then after eating I am sooooo tired. Not sure if food choices of fruit and veggies only makes this happen or if from all of it together.

Sadly I noticed that a vain has popped out on my Left eye. I am not a vain person who cares about getting old but this does bother me as I dont understand what about this cleansing process has made it big. Kinda scares me a bit. Hope it is not some parasite hanging out in my vain...lol.





Speaking of SCARED.....this last week I had a total mental break down. I watched a stupid fear based and driven video about parasites. I know about parasites and though I knew this video was all about FEAR...i kept watching to see if I would learn anything new. Well I sure did. I learned how to go into a total panic attach in under 15 min that lasted 1 hour. So many factors involved. I can be a total germ-a-phobe so knowing I have some worm/bug in me just freaks me out. To watch a show about what they can do and how they work just pushed me over the edge. ...it did not help I started my period AND I am detoxing either...kinda helps you make a molehill  into a  mountain.  :)

I am finding it very hard to decide how to eat. Like I said in the past, normally when killing candida you eat a VERY strict organic diet. But this time because I have a ton of supplements I wanted to kill it by going pH correct/alkaline. I find I am drinking lost of smoothies and eating lots of fruits and raw veggies...when I have an appetite. I fear the fruit is not helping to kill the bugs but I KNOW it helps get alkaline. So I am kinda in a waiting game to see what wins. The alkaline state w/ supplements OR the bug. And when you know what kind of parasites could be in you and what they do....you dont want to WAIT on anything. So I sit her pondering do I bite the bullet and do it hard core and be sick as a dog with "die off" and feel like death for 2 weeks while I kill everything....OR....do I chill out and do it slowly knowing all the while these parasites are taking over my body and Candida is making me sick.

I plan to give this choice of eating along with supplements a go for a full 14 days. So I will pray Sunday about what to do and on Monday my 15th day either stick with it as is or go full combat on all of it and ask the Lord for mercy in the process. LOL.

I am also thinking I might see about paying to get a live blood test done so I can see if I have mold in my system, what kind of parasities and how bad the candida is. I will keep you posted on that as well.

Be blessed  and healthy till next time, Tage

Friday, July 19, 2013

Day 5 and already changes. yahoo!

7/19/2013
today is my 4th day of supplements but 5th day of cleansing my body with food choices. Today was also my first day to eat solids. So far so good.

So I woke up today with very high alkaline urine...yahooo but very acid spit. boo.

I took my second Candida Glass spit test today and it is already looking so much better. I cant believe it. I actually had bubbles in my spit. First time in a long time.

I had NO sand paper eyelids when I woke up this morning either.

My favorite new thing....I actually slept ON MY BELLY for about an hour. I have not slept flat on my belly for years. It always hurts me. But for some reason today there was no belly pain. SO GREAT!

STRANGE things: MY STUPID EAR THINGY!
I do not understand this ear thing. IT is so crazy. Today it hurts almost like an ear infection. The best I can describe it is like this. When you have an ear infection and you hear it popping deep in the back of the ear. OR like when you are flying and there is pressure and you yawn and that sound of that popping or crackling....the only other time I have had it was when i ate something sour and my glands hurt and it made all that spit in my mouth but it also effected my ears some and made a crackle noise. I KNOW this is not IN my ear but way back behind all the parts. AND i know it is not an infection just crazy inflammation from being so Acid and Candida I guess. I started rubbing lemon, purification and  Eucalyptus Blue Young living Oils around my ear and jaw. Then i put these oils on a cotton ball and stick it in my ear. Last night was my first time to add Eucalyptus an it made a huge difference BUT my ear hurt today..lol.

I started using my home made suppositories....they work great. I am sooo glad I made them. I am using coconut oil, lemongrass, oregano and Digize Young Living oils. ( I would never use ANY OTHER brand of oil in my life. And I sure has heck would NEVER put another brand of oil in a suppository. NO freaking way. I only use the safest most natural oil on the planet for "that area"...heehee)

 Here is the link to my  Essential Oils Suppository video. Not professional but gets the job done. lol.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kmVz8DFsX5M


My worries:WHAT DO I EAT????????????
I am so overwhelmed with how to eat. I am trying NOT to freak out and get overwhelmed but I am. I just dont know WHAT to eat.
If you know anything about candida it feeds on sugars. ANY kind of sugar. So for instance. If you eat a steak and then veggies....they can not die off because it takes the steak so long to digest that the veggies become a sugar in the gut....soooo food for candida. You cant eat fruit...sugar. You cant eat bread...sugar. And so on! BUTTTTTT, here is why I am so overwhelmed. I was told my liver is in need of help and cleansing...so meat is not good for it right now. ONLY Veggies and fruits...BUTTT, I was told my body is not processing Veggies well so that would leave fruits....BUTTTT, I am showing signs of a stressed pancreas and insulin intolerance...SO NO FRUIT EITHER! WHAT DO I EAT????????????

For the last 4 days all I have had is smoothies, soup/broth, Nigxia Red from Young Living and watermelon. Right now all I can think to eat is veggies and chicken and fruit but all of it is bad for me. I need to find out if Beans and nuts are  hard on the liver. I know I can eat Quinoa but other than that....I am screwed..lol.

My big plan is to eat ONLY food from Beyond Organic (Jordan Ruben). It is live and raw and easy to digest. So I started on that today and will eat ONLY that unless I am out to dinner and I will get soup and salad.

Ok till tomorrow or so, be blessed and healthy, Tage

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

7/17/2013

Day 3 of kicking Candida and Parasites butt. (I have been informed it might take 90 days) :(

So I decided to eat nothing solid for 4 days and only drink smoothies, juice, broth, Greens from ITWorks, water and Young Living Nignxia Red. I decided the most solid I would "eat" was watermelon.

Day 2 I was starving. Not because I could not eat enough but because you burn off those foods so fast and I just did not feel like drinking all day long. So i had hunger most of the day. I drank plenty but my gut wanted more.

Also on day 2 I started my supplements. I notice after my second set of drops that I itch almost instantly. In the past that meant I was allergic to what I put in my body, so I am going to watch it closely and see if it is that or actually a die off symptom.


CHANGES......
**Today I woke up with less gritty feeling in my eyes AND so excited I slept all night laying flat and my hips hurt way less.
**I am checking my pH with a pee test strip all day and strangely it goes from 7.4 (perfect) to 6.2 acidic. I do not know why this is. I know we are more alkaline at night and I need to take an average of the day but I look forward to the day I am always in the 7's.
**So far the die off has not truly showed it nasty self cause I am on day 2 of supplements. I did however have the runs ALL day yesterday and it knocked me out so I had to take a nap. Will be interesting to see if the diarrhea is from no solids and or if caused by the supplements.

I have not weighed my self as that is NOT the reason for this. I want to be well and as long as my weight is not climbing and I dont end up 250 again I am happy. I do want to be back at my goal weight but I will never get there unhealthy.

Adding...on top of what the DR gave me....
** I am doing a Digize and Juvaflex Young living essential oil hot compress on my belly at night plus putting it on my feet. **I am drinking 8.7-9.5 alkaline water all day with a herbal peach tea bag in it for flavor.
**I am taking double the fiber needed (this is to flush out the dying candida. Sadly candida eats their dead family as food. Sooo, you need insane amounts of fiber to absorb them and remove them from the body. )
**I am drinking Cambucha 2 bottles a day (if i can it is hard to do so much liquids)
**I am taking Ultimate Flora Critical Care 50 billion with 10 probiotic strains along with Young Living Life 5 probiotic.( the key to probiotics is not just how many billion but the STRAINS. You need to get different strains to do different things in your body. also most die before they even get purchased by you then even more die in the body before they ever get to your gut. So you need to get a supplement that has delayed release if you are killing it in your intestines.)

Ok well here is to day 3 of kicking the buggers butts. Wish me luck!!!!!!!